Be Near

It's been a long time coming for me but I'm so thankful that the Lord is gentle with those of us who some times go through life situations kicking and screaming digging our emotional heels in. My husband was wishing for our next child way before I even started contemplating the idea. August was the beginning for me. As most of you know I started the journey of seeking and undergoing a new round of treatment with one of the goals being pregnancy.

I remember getting up in the middle of one of my wrestling nights thinking about the reality of having another child. I heard a voice loud and clear rising up from my heart with firm love saying " Who are you to withhold a life from my world? what great things this child will do if only you will let go of your life." Matthew 15:24-26 was a verse that kept coming back to me over the past year and now as I stood by my little upstairs window I knew He had been preparing me for this time for a long time. Isn't that His way?

Now it's Christmas time and I'm around 11 weeks along in my second pregnancy letting go of all the busyness and holding on to the promise that I will never be left alone, praying that the Lord would satisfy and replenish this weary soul.