Living day to day can be really hard especially when you start to believe the whispers of the evil one. I've always been one to look over my shoulders at what other people are doing or how good they are doing to judge where I need to be in my life. If I'm slacking off I just don't feel good about myself. Its easy to believe the put downs that arise. " your no good, a failure, lazy, weak, unable to focus, etc." Life gets pretty dry when you go down that road. Oswald Chambers says

the starvation of the imagination is one of the most fruitful sources of exhaustion and sapping in a worker's life. If you have never used your imagination to put yourself before God, begin to do it now. It is no use waiting for God to come, you must put your imagination away from the face of idols and look unto Him and be saved.

Sometimes it takes a little bit of a challenge to get me out of myself and into that place of imagination. Two weeks ago I experienced some spotting and then again early this week. I never experienced this with my first pregnancy so I was a bit concerned. Even in little dilemmas I'm quick to call on the help of friends and family and so that is exactly what I did. I can say without a doubt that those prayers where completely felt by me through a deep sense of peace. I had an ultrasound today at the Choices Women's Center because it was free for me. It was absolutely amazing to be able to walk into a center where I felt such peace and comfort. The two women who did the ultrasound found that my placenta was indeed close to my cervix and although they aren't able to diagnose anything it was clear what was going on. Although this was a little bit of a discouragement I was relieved to know what was going on. We also were able to see that we are, as far as we can tell, having a boy.

At the end of our time the two women took a moment to pray with us which was such a tremendous blessing. The Lord totally went above and beyond anything I could have imagined in caring and loving on us today. Although I'm not excited about the positioning of my placenta I am realizing that the Lord has used this situation to show me how much I am loved and blessed by his hand in my life. Its easy to say we are loved but when we are given grace upon grace it just seems to hit home a bit more.

So right now I'm learning to take it easy a bit more and just soaking up the words of my Father and remembering what he has done for me. I'm learning how to look away from what has consumed me lately and look full into his wonderful face.

please continue to pray. thanks.