The Power

" I lift up my eyes to the hills; Where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, The Maker of heaven and earth."

Its easy to let fear rush into my heart when things start going wrong. Having spotting at eighteen weeks with this pregnancy was super scary for me and I felt the flood gates opening when I found out that I had placenta previa. Since then I've been so humbled by the love and support from all of my friends and family. Peace isn't something you can manufacture and if you know me I tend to look for trouble and feed off of worry. And yet since my first ultrasound I've had such a deep peace in my heart. So on Tuesday when I went for my second ultrasound and found out that everything was normal and that my little guys is doing beautifully I was not surprised, just really thankful.

This has been one of those situations where I have just let go, mainly because it really wasn't up to me in the first place. Letting go and lifting my eyes up and looking around at what the Lord has created has been extremely empowering for me. If my God made all of this that I see, how much more does he care for me and my troubles. In college I found such great solace in going out into the woods and just being still. I imagined (like Anne) that I was in a great big open cathedral and could just feel a prayer...Lately I've seen it in the way the leaves seem to clap when the wind rushes through them, the mystery of baby lambs being born and knowing how to stand up minutes after, the swirling stars that hang so high in the atmosphere and especially for some reason the moon with its silver light that reflects the brilliancy of the sun. This coupled with the prayers whispered on my and my sons behalf have allowed me to see the awesome power of an amazing God at work in my every day life.